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K, so I'm basically writing this entry because I'm tired of explaining how the weekend/results of my past visit at Carolina Crown went.

I ended up getting the alternate spot.  Meaning I was ranked 10th when only 9 spots and 1 alternate spot were given out.  So what this means is that I'll be doing everything as if I had been given a normal spot.  I have to continue going to all the camps and I'll be going on tour this summer as well.  Everything we do, we'll have 10 drums out except for performances.  So basically, because drum corp is such a high risk/high cost activity, I'm waiting for someone to get hurt or not be able to do it because of time or money issues.  Through the people I know that have done it, I've never seen a drumline retain every single one of its members throughout the whole season so theres a high likelihood of me eventually being in a spot soon enough, although this wasnt the way I wanted it to happen.

On that note, if you wanna know how I feel about my results... I'm pretty upset with myself about how I did these past few camps.  Leading up to the first camp in November, I was pretty fired up and was practicing alot - like you would expect from someone trying out for corp.  But every camp past the first one, I feel like I half-assed it each and every single time.  Never being pleased with my performance at the camp and never really doing much to fix it.  So in turn, I feel like I let myself down.  In the end, I suppose I am recieving the same educational experience as I would if I had been given a normal spot and that is the bigger picture of why you do drum corp, but I wish I had done something to make my situation better from the beginning because, as bad as this sounds, I KNOW there are people that made it that I am better than and to have them ranked higher than me is a personal insult.  I suppose I f-ed up this time and got the consolation prize because of it. 

I've always prided myself in being someone who, when he commits to something, does it with 100% heart, but this was a real slap to the face.  Oh well...We live to learn, right?  I think I learned my lesson.

Till next time...

Ok, so my friend Sam "tagged" me or whatnot...theres all these rules and stuff but basically you're supposed to write 5 things that are weird habits of yours and then "tag" 5 people...i wont bother with all the tagging business, but heres 5 weird things about me on Sam's request:

1.  I sleep without shirt or shorts/pants, just in my boxers no matter what the season or how cold it is in my house...I just let my sheets/blankets do their job.

2.  I twirl my hair (when its long enough) around my middle finger whenever i'm in a position to where I can rest my elbow on something (usually my desk when i'm sitting)....kinda girly, i know...but its my thing

3.  Nine times out of Ten, if I'm in my room, I am not wearing a shirt (yea, i know...2 out of my first 3 habits involve the lack of clothing...i must be a nudist at heart)

4.  I'm more of a neat freak than anyone would imagine someone of my personality to be.

5.  uhhh, i cant think of anything, so by recommendation, i'll make it "to be continued..."

Till next time...